Me Update….

19 10 2009

So after a weeks worth of OPKs ran out I decided to call my doctor and see what she thought. She had me come in that day for an ultrasound. It basically showed I had 1 post mature follicle and a few others that werent mature. So she said most likely the OPKs just didnt detect it. She basically said to dont lose hope and hopefully everything will still work out this month. If not then we will try more monitoring in her office next month. I kinda figured this would happen. I was hoping if we did very little to make my body work it just would. I guess not so much.

In other random baby news I have had 2 dreams in the last 2 nights. The first night was an adoption dream. I have never in my life had one and it was very bizarre and vivid. This couple just gave us their baby girl. They had 4 kids and couldnt handle anymore and knew our struggle and just gave her to us. No money no nothing. Ha. I know that doesnt happen in real life but let me know you it was such a great feeling in that dream to know that I finally was a mom. And I remember in the dream that I thought wow now this is why I have all the baby stuff all ready to go….

The 2nd dream was last night and I dont really remember it as well but I just know that I was in the hospital giving birth. It was also a girl in this dream.

Nils also had a dream not too long ago that I gave birth in a hospital but was in a cubical. LOL that made me laugh. Apparently he missed the birth and got off the elevator and there I was in the cube with our baby. A girl as well.

I know all of these could mean nothing but still just makes my wheels turn and I just really would love some prayers for clarity as to what in the world our next step is supposed to be!


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Mom Update

19 10 2009

Just wanted to post a quick update on my mom.  She spent last week on a 7 day cruise with one of her good friends from Florida. They had an awesome time and I feel it was so great for her just to get away and enjoy life without the everyday reality of  ”I have cancer”. Unfortunately she couldn’t be out in the sun. She also couldn’t get in the water because of her open incision. But overall she still had a wonderful time. She heads back to work this week and I am really dreading this for her. She is tired and worn out easily and I just am praying for strength that can only come from God to help her keep moving. She had chemo today and as far as I know it went just fine. She hasn’t lost her hair yet which has been very surprising. Overall I feel she is doing well considering. I think she is doing as well as can be expected when you are undergoing chemo. Please pray for her as she heads back to work this week and back to a somewhat normal life again after being out since August.


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65 days…and almost 4 years

2 10 2009

That was the number of days my cycle was last month. Seriously? Shouldnt I have had 2 in that time? Well anyways heres a quick update on me….

Went to my ob for my annual and mentioned to her that my period is no where to be found. This was on day 51. She did a quick ultrasound and sure enough after 51 days my body finally produced something. Well basically she said lets hope this is it and sent me on my way. She said to call her in 2 weeks and let her know what happened. Well needless to say nothing happened and as she predicted my period came 14 days after that apt. Basically that is the only part of this that always happens. 14days after ovulation your period comes. Wow great at least 1 part of my cycle is normal. Ha!

Well anyways after talking with her and going over my history it seems like this is the one thing wrong and we have known that all along is my body just doesnt really ovulate in a timely manner each month. Apparently eventually it does but not in the “normal” sense. I voiced my concerns that I just dont feel we have tried everything yet b4 moving to IVF and after some talking we decided she would call my RE and see if he would be ok with my ob doing some cycles with me on just a basic fsh (follicle stimulating hormone) and see what happens. So for 3 cycles we are going to try this and then hopefully I will have closure on this phase and have some direction as to where we go next. So I’ll start meds today through tuesday. Take OPKs this month and hope for the best. Yes this is 5 million steps back but i really dont know that all that other crap was really necessary. I have had 2 pregnancies and both were on clomid. Never once on injections. So maybe the injections were producing empty follicles? Who knows but I hope and pray that something this simple will finally work out. She is actually putting me on femara. This is something similar to clomid but is actually rated as a cancer drug. Its kind of a long story but basically it isnt fully approved by the makers but some fertility docs are using it and it has shown some success. Plus from what I can find the miscarriage rate is lower so far and we just still arent clear if the clomid was it?  If this month doesnt work she’ll do some monitoring and I have a left over Ovidrel in the fridge that we’ll use.

So that’s kinda of my long awaited update. We decided to take a month off which ended up being over 2 months and now we are going to try this. January marks 4 years that I have been off birth control. I am really dreading it being here but know we have to move on at that point. I know we are young but 4 years is a long time no matter what your age. Oh and my birthday is this month. ICK. :( Just another reminder that I would have finally been a mom if either of my little ones had made it. Ugh. Please pray that this would finally be IT!


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