April’s Adventures

I think after tomorrow I am done with this crap. I tested tonight and not even a faint sign of anything. Im sure tomorrow will once again be negative. My insurance has been awesome through all this so that is one thing I am thankful for but honestly Im beginning to think maybe I am not supposed to be a mom. I mean seriously who goes through so much crap every cycle and then nothing happens. Or worse yet the 2 positives Ive had I miscarried. Who has an entire nursery finished without a child to put in it. I was so sure in the 11 weeks with my 1st pregnancy that it was finally my turn. Who freaking has 7 IUI’s with nothing actually work out in the end. So as of right now and I know now is not the time to make decisions but seriously I dont think I can take another month of negative tests. Thanks for all the prayers and support through this but Im beginning to think this is one that will go unanswered. I may not have much to blog about anymore since this has been my life for the last 3 years but maybe someday I will have something positive to project out there in the blog world.