April’s Adventures

My IUI went great yesterday! To make an IUI go great would be that everything looks like I am ovulating and a count of over 5million to inject in. Well I wont go into anymore detail other than to say it was WAY over that number. Now I wait 2 weeks. Take progesterone and hope to see a positive test. If that’s the case then I go down there at 6 weeks for     heartbeat(s) and then will be released to my regular doctor. If its not than I’m not sure what we will do. The doctor planned to do 3 cycles before reevaluating everything but I am so beyond drained that I’m not sure what we will do. So for now I’m going to think positive and hope and pray that everything turns out great this cycle!

I spent the whole day down at Mayo yesterday. My grandpa had to have a heart cath done and had to be there at 8am. There was no sense in driving myself down there since I took the whole day off. So I went with him, mom, and grandma. It turned out that he had to have 2 stints put in and then was transported over to the hospital to stay over night for observation. Everything went good with the procedure and he should be home this evening. We are glad they were able to do the stint otherwise it was looking like Openheart Surgery.

Well that’s about it for now. I’ll post an update eventually about how this turns out….

I found out yesterday that the changes in our infertility coverage for 2009 are already going to make a huge difference. Up untill now I was on very inexpensive fertility meds (clomid). They were covered even before this change. Well now that I am starting injectables this month I wanted to find out how exactly we would be charged for them. The old plan would cover them if they were adminstered by a Doctor. Well since I will be the one giving myself the shot it wouldnt have been covered till now. I called Bluecross and come to find out all I need is a prior authorization from my doctor explaining why he is putting me on this and they will cover the meds like any other prescription that I need which is $15 for generic or $30 for all others. This is huge because they normally run anywhere from $500-1000 unless you find them on discount medicine sites. I also found out that no one carries the medicine in stock but Target can get them next day! So providing everything goes great today at my apt I will be starting them next week!!!

I have often wondered if this really was the path that the Lord wanted us to take and wondered if I was just making these decisions on my own but this is really confirmation to me that He has total control of this plan and that He knew the exact moment that my insurance would change. Had I been put on this medication last year most likely we would not have gone through with it because it is just so expensive for 7 days worth of medication. I know that some people out there may not approve of us or anyone seeking medical intervention to get pregnant but I feel a total peace about it now and know that He is leading us in this direction and that it is OK for us to be going through the fertility treatments. He uses medicine intervention for His glory and healing sometimes. Ultimately He is the one in charage and will decide when and how this will all work out! I can’t wait to see the end result!

Well as the new year turns I am trying not to reflect too much on what happened this last year and really look to the future. I have hit the 1 year mark of going through fertility treatments. Right now I have gotten pregnant 2 of the 8 rounds of treatment so hopefully 2009′s average is a little better. I go to Mayo on thursday and he will lay out the plans for this month. All I know is that it will involve more blood work, injectable fertility meds, ultrasounds, and an IUI. I am ready to take all of this on again and am hopeful for what is to come. I started reading a book over vacation called Hannah’s Hope. It has been such an awesome book already and I am only through the first few chapters. It has turned my bitterness, jeliousy, and anger towards those who havent had this struggle into motherhood and really changed how I view others. I know that every child out there whether “planned” or not were all a part of God’s plan and really that is all that matters. Every child is a miracle no matter how much the parents struggled or didnt to conceive them. I am done living in the rut and know that by getting out of this only great things can happen in the future! It has been such a comforting and convicting book and I would highly recommend it to anyone that has dealt with infertility, infant loss, or adoption loss. All of this things are covered with biblical backing. OK thats my plug on the good book. I dont read very often because I really only like to read Medical, History, Biographys and anything that has happened or will happen in real life. I just dont get into the fictional stuff I guess so I dont end up reading much.

We just got back from a much needed vacation. We planned this trip after my first miscarriage as a time away since that would have been when we were having a baby (dec 24 or around then). It was a great break away and I am really ready to take on 2009 now. I shopped a ton, wore flip flops everyday, slept in till whenever I wanted, ate a ton of Chick-fil-a and just overall had a relaxing time with Nils and our dog Sadie.

Christmas went better than I expected. I woke up the 24th with a real sense of peace and only cried a few times over the course of the day and the 25th. I know that the peace I had only came from one place and that’s God. He deff. gave me the peace that passes all understand because I have been dreading this day since the day I miscarried. I know that all I can do is trust Him and he will give Nils and I the desire of our heart.

Well thats about it for now. Please continue to pray for this journey for us. It isnt one that everyone takes and I really feel that there is a reason we got into Mayo so quick and were referred on. I know that sometimes the Lord works miracles with medical intervention and I know ultimately that no matter how much treatment I do He is still in charge of every step of the way. Also pray for good weather the days I have to drive down there. It could be a long drive if the roads are bad!

Hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and I hope that 2009 is your best year yet!