Tomorrow we have the apt at Mayo. I am nervous and excited about going there. I feel like I have been going through this infertility struggle for so long but yet I am really just starting over because I am now seeing a Reproductive Endocrinologist. I know that I am in the best hands there as well as the Lords. Between them and Him I am just believing in a miracle.
I did find out one thing that now throws a wrench into all of this. I received a copy of my medical records. As I was reading through all I have been through in the last year I noticed something that they put every time as to why I am there. It was a list of usually 3-4 things. Always Infertility, Anovulation, and then Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. This is one thing that I was not aware of. 3 years ago I was tested at a different clinic and they sent me home with info about it. They then called a few days later and said that I dont have it. Well apparently my clinic now tested it when we first starting having testing done and I do have it. I have never once been told this but it is on my chart. So I am really confused and a part of me just doesnt get how they just didnt bother telling me or treating me for it. I have learned that be careful what you pray for though! I have prayed so many times “Lord, please give them an answer for me. I just need a reason why?” Well I now wish that I could take this prayer back! The unknown was better! But I now know and always have known that I am in good hands both medically and spiritually. I will update after my apt and hopefully this time next year I will no longer be mourning the loss of 2 children but will finally be able to hold my little one in my arms! Thanks again as always for your prayers and support through all of this!
