Today’s Devotion (from Christan Women Today)

5 12 2008

BELIEVING GOD
“Is anything too hard for God?” God asked Abraham this when He appeared to him and his wife Sarah and told them that Sarah would have the child they had yearned for all their lives.

Sarah had laughed at the idea that she would actually bear a child at the age of 90. But she did!

Why do we tend to limit God, even though we may be familiar with His mighty works? Even the virgin Mary, chosen vessel of God, could not understand how she could be the mother of a child without “knowing” a man. An angel told her the Holy Spirit would come upon her and His power would overshadow her.

“Therefore,” he continued, “that Holy One who is to be born will be called the Son of God,” Then he told Mary that her cousin, Elizabeth, who was way past the age of child-bearing, was also going to have a son. He concluded by saying, “For with God nothing will be impossible” (Luke 1:37).

Do you believe that?   Well, read Psalm 145 (http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalm%20145;&version=31; ), letting its blessed truths sink into your heart and mind. Think about them, savor them, and then follow the psalmist’s example of praise.

I love the book of Ephesians. Listen to this: “Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations” (Eph. 3:20-21). Does that not fill your heart with faith when you realize how all-powerful our Lord is?

Paul, inspired of God, said to the Ephesian believers, “May the eyes of your understanding be enlightened, that you may know what is the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints, and what is the exceeding greatness of His power toward us who believe, according to the working of His mighty power.”

Father God,

Thank you that with You, nothing is impossible. Help me this Christmas to put my trust in You in fresh and courageous ways. Increase my faith Lord. I ask in the powerful name of Jesus, amen.

Questions: Are you believing God today or are you limiting God in your life today? Do you truly know and have faith that God is who He said He is and He will do as He has promised? Ask God to increase your faith today.

Nothing truly is impossible for him and I am so encouraged by this devotion today! Its like HE knew that this is what I needed to see today!

On a side note I went to lifetime this morning before work! :) I have only once in my life gotten up to work out before work and am hoping to keep this up every other day! It really does make a difference in your day! Even if you get out of bed at 5am!





Mayo Apt Update

2 12 2008

So this whole day has been filled with blood draws and my apt. My apt was about 2 hours long and just discussed what I have been through to this point. He confirmed that I do in fact have poly cystic ovary syndrome. Basically he said that puts me at a higher risk of miscarriage, and misc other issues. He said that this is somewhat harder to treat (someone with multiple miscarriages) then someone who has never been pregnant. He said that I will not go back on clomid but our next step will be injectables. He wanted to run a million more tests on me (blood work) and to have a 3 hour glucose test. Something about PCOS and insulin issues and so on. I was going to do it there but they only do them at 730am. So I went to where I have been going and did the test! Wow was that terrible! I got so nauseous and bored out of my mind for 3 hours! But im glad it is over with. He has put me on hold for 3 months and wants me to lose weight. UGH :( My whole life ive been told that and Ive done it in the past but after a year of infertility treatments and 2 miscarriages I am not in very good shape. So we go tomorrow to get a gym membership and that will be my new home. He wants me to go everyday for at least 30mins. Yikes! May not sound like much to some but that will for sure kick my butt! He said that just doing that might help get my body into shape and ovulate on its own. Some how I am doubtful of this happening but at least I’ll be at a healthier weight when I do get pregnant again. So anyways thats pretty much my story. I feel like Im one giant pin cushion. 20 vials in 2 weeks is a record I hope to never break in my lifetime again! So Im in limbo land for a little while. This majorly bums me out but thats life i guess. I was really hoping he’d just jump in and get going. Well thats about the general idea of everything. I didnt get home till 3pm from all of this so I have missed work completely today :( That is never good when you dont have PTO to cover it! I go back in 2 weeks for a follow up of the tests he is having run and will go from there. Sorry this wasnt a more exciting update but hopefully one day I will have one.





Mayo tomorrow…

1 12 2008

Tomorrow we have the apt at Mayo. I am nervous and excited about going there. I feel like I have been going through this infertility struggle for so long but yet I am really just starting over because I am now seeing a Reproductive Endocrinologist. I know that I am in the best hands there as well as the Lords. Between them and Him I am just believing in a miracle.

I did find out one thing that now throws a wrench into all of this. I received a copy of my medical records. As I was reading through all I have been through in the last year I noticed something that they put every time as to why I am there. It was a list of usually 3-4 things. Always Infertility, Anovulation, and then Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. This is one thing that I was not aware of. 3 years ago I was tested at a different clinic and they sent me home with info about it. They then called a few days later and said that I dont have it. Well apparently my clinic now tested it when we first starting having testing done and I do have it. I have never once been told this but it is on my chart. So I am really confused and a part of me just doesnt get how they just didnt bother telling me or treating me for it. I have learned that be careful what you pray for though! I have prayed so many times “Lord, please give them an answer for me. I just need a reason why?” Well I now wish that I could take this prayer back! The unknown was better! But I now know and always have known that I am in good hands both medically and spiritually. I will update after my apt and hopefully this time next year I will no longer be mourning the loss of 2 children but will finally be able to hold my little one in my arms! Thanks again as always for your prayers and support through all of this!